A Little Pouring

Christmas break has been extremely hectic. not enough time for everything i want and have to do! it was a good thing my mom had been doing all the buying-gifts business throughout the whole year after last christmas, so we really didn't have much to buy and stress on about, but still. we had to buy giftwraps and all the other things that had to go with it, then wrap all the gifts. boy, we really had a lot of people to give gifts to... (o_o) anyway, it's better to give than to receive, as they say.

we didn't do so bad in the loot bags too, if i do say so myself. i got mostly cute stuffy toys... awww... ^_^ and EK gave me a mini date organizer and a magic pen! YAY! (dunno what it's called, like the one used by the curator of the Lourve at the Da Vinci Code. really neat!... ok, punch me for being shallow, but i really liked 'em!) gel received tons of gifts, we couldn't believe it at first. half came from her girl friends while half came from her boy friends. ::coughboyletsandmanliligawscough:: heehee. :D i dunno why, or maybe i do, but my brother keeps receiving kitchenware/appliances for gifts and raffles. lol. my sister (dear ate :) had all these lotions (marks and spencer - sosyaaal..!), perfumes and make-up kits. and NO, she does not smell. haha. =p

survivor13 just finished and YUL won! haha! it wasn't a really good ending, though. a bit disappointing, if you ask me. not much happened. ever since then, i've been hooked on PRISON BREAK starring wentworth miller. i'm getting goey eyes just writing this. heehee. real serious jail stuff, with the drama/violence/sarcasm/wit all in one. highly recommended, though not for the faint of heart. :)

We were able to catch the last days showing of Happy Feet. it was really cute, and how they merged CGI with real people was very clever, i think. the movie just screams "stop global damage!" but i think it was only me. :) ironically, i only wanted to watch a movie because of movie trailers. hehe. i love watching movie trailers, maybe even more than watching the actual movie itself. =p i even wish that i could make or edit an actual movie trailer someday. that would just be so beyond words, if it happened. WAAAAHH! :D anyway, it was quite off-putting how there were only two trailers in happy feet - HP + the half-blood prince and eragon. i wanna watch both! WAAAAHH!

i forgot to write about Middle Finger Po, a play we had to watch at Entablado. additional points for fil, but it was a great watch too! :) it really hit the mark in the internal and external problems involving the youth, young as we are. 'twas quite controversial for those watching it without an open mind, but it was all good. i have to write a paper about it and i can't wait!

Uh... i have a LOT more things that i want to write about... i don't know if i have the time. i'm consuming a lot of electricity as i even type this! gotta save save save... o_o

I love Pancake House. i love eating there, but there was this one time where i couldn't help leave the table with a bad taste in my mouth. i'll write about it later.

i was looking forward to this christmas party with my whole highschool peeps, but it never really came through. a big BUMMER, that one. phffft. = (

someone save me from HP fanfiction! WAAAAAAAHHH! ::deep breaths:: ... [pause] ok, this will pass... this will pass... this will pass... (-_-) pretty soon i'll be back to king lear anyway. =/

Open the Drawers

It's 1:30 in the morning and i'm so wide awake it's exhausting. I just finished reading the whole available lot in the third installment of the HP fanfiction trilogy Paradigm of Uncertainty, The Show that Never Ends, and The Hero with A Thousand Faces - all by this extremely brilliant but emotionally exhausting author named Lori. Seriously, she's amazing... just like the other author named Cassandra Claire. :) although i wasn't joking about the emotionally exhausting part. better find myself a nice little funny fic to up my spirits. hehe.

I was supposed to stop reading fanfics until i finished reading King Lear, but it all started again when i had to e-mail my en12 prof about my worksheet 5 (which i supposedly possess now BUT should NOT.... argh! can't believe i forgot about it! well. no can do now, but waite for a reply. -_- darn it! bugger! crap!)

What about king lear? maybe next time... heehee. i will read it eventually, i know it. just not now. :)

Anyway, onto updates... hmm.. where to start.. ah, last two weeks of school! :)

Before the much awaited Xmas vacation (which will technically last for only a week... really...):

We had this grueling long exam in botany, as expected, then all these notecards for Sir Vince to finish, then the ''quiz after quiz after quiz'' with Mr. Pu about King Lear (which I have yet to fully read and comprehend), then there was this funny/wierd incident in botany class that involved "PASS!" and someone needing to take a breather. Then a long exam in math (hopefully, i passed :) and another long exam in filipino (wh/c much to my - and everybody's it seems - surprise, got top 3 marks! heehee. - earned me an ''ampao'' and hope it contains something good).

kenot sy organized (well. not so, as there was really nothing to organize, heehee. :p) this little photoshoot/pictorial for our block, and i brought this really pretty top and all that jewelry just to find that everyone else looked so simple/natural/cool. i wanted to just wear the pretty thing and have my picture taken, but just couldn't bear to show myself so "done up," coward that i am. darn. :/ oh, well. maybe next time. speaking of which, i hope i look smashing on lit night! it's going to be this party where all lit majors gather and each year is required to give a presentation (we were planning on dancing!:) and the juniors were going to reade poetry or something... seriously... Sir Gizmo couldn't have put it better himself)

on the last day i was late because i wasn't able to finish my notecards fully. :( i wasn't really up to it was the simple answer as to why that happened. i was even supposed to skip one morning of novena mass just to force myself to finish it. NOT. my topic's not even that polished, anyway, so i really couldn't bother to put ALL my effort into it, much less sacrifice doing something i consider more important. =p

Simbang Gabi/Novena Masses had me deprived of sleep starting dec. 16, and the break wasn't until dec. 21. let me just say it hurt to go to school when you know you woke up 3 or 4 o'clock in the morning. and i was SO looking forward to Xmas break. so much, in fact, that i forgot to double check my envelope before passing it and see if if i actually returned worksheet 5. crap! darn! i knew i forgot something when i handed it over, just felt it in my gut, but i still didn't think anything of it! >_<>

oh well. :)

dear me... feeling really sleepy right now... better continue this next time... -_-

ciao!

[this entry has been edited since the last sleepy babbling and has since experienced continuous malfunction. :O ]

Take A Peak

Just a little pic post. :) I really want to write an entry, but the Christmas Season makes all extremely busy. I'm going to write about the last two weeks of school, last day of school before the break, Christmas break, classroom anecdotes, HP, gifts, technophobia, PRISONBREAK!, Survivor13, lost money, lost chances, Middle Finger Po, Kz and Mi, Novena Mass, sleep deprivation, Pancake House, Pizza Hut, brownies, loot bags, Happy Feet, and that stupid Cbox that just would not show up on my blog.

*The pic's a candid shot of me by my 15-y/o blockmate, EK. It was also photoshopped by her. :)

Ciao! ^_^

Meh Mad-Eyes Moody

Hmmm... I've been a bit moodier than usual, especially at home. Stress is getting to me. ::sigh:: Sometimes I just want to burst out crying just to release some of it and feel lighter later. and let me tell you, i've been crying a lot lately. To list down the things that stress me out here would fill out the whole page, so I'm still trying to summarize it. haha. it's the start of another week and i'm hoping everything all goes well.

hmm... good things have been happening in school, some at home, still a bit stressed. i don't like being stressed. it stems from desiring too much, and the weakness and hopelessness of knowing that you don't control your life entirely, as much as you would like to think it to be. why is it that you try to please others and do what they want because you love them: sacrifice your time, force yourself to be happy, work hard, obey orders, do more than required... but when you make one mistake, EVERYTHING that you have built comes crumbling down. i think i'm gonna cry again, haha.

i've been loving "supernatural" and dean ::squeal!::. sis bought the whole first season in one dvd. hopefully, i'll finish watching the whole thing. :) hate survivor now, yul, how could you vote out jonathan??? stupid people, stupid players.

i need more songs from anna nalick and vanessa carlton. seether, where are you?! rihanna rocks.

"Educated" - Some Serious Stuff

We had an interesting discussion in Fil12 during our last meeting. It was about "Wika" and why Filipinos were even studying the subject "Filipino." (Of course, I got called, and all I could muster was a senseless babble about how if language ends then the world ends too. =p)

Like, duh. We're Filipinos, right?

Nope, that's not the way it works.

There are many reasons why Filipinos should study Filipino, and now we know most of them.

What I don't understand is why Filipinos have to be divided into social classes.

I mean, if the higher society is so educated, and we're already living in the 21st century, why can't our country achieve harmony and/or unity (ASIDE from barriers in language)? What is this division and classification between A, B, C or D? Lower-middle class/Upper-middle class? Upper class or the elite? Is it truly necessary? Are we so narrow-minded that we have to base our judgements and/or decisions from these classifications and stereotypes? If we're so educated, then why can't we have and practice the ability of reaching out? Of leadng others and ispiring people to step up and fight for progress... progress that'll benefit everyone... as in every single person in this country... father, mother, and child.

Why can't someone actually make a difference?

When I was studying in St. John's Academy, I didn't care if I was with another from whatever class in society. What mattered was we were learning, we were having fun, and we had hopes for the future. When the time came that we had to choose our schools for college, many of my batchmates chose to go to certain schools for economic reasons. I chose the Ateneo because I believed it was the best: the best environment (where everonyone had breeding and were overall nice and fun outside class, not judgmental), the best teachers (from whom I could learn the most useful and practical information for me to attain success in my future career), and gave the best opportunities to those who had the ability to live up to their expectations.

What I didn't expect was to get all of those and SO MUCH MORE. Some were good, some weren't. And I would jump from extreme happiness to bottomless depression. I was going nuts! (Then again, I always was...)

The people were so different. The teaching was great, I needed a little adjusting, but I knew I'd live. What I couldn't stand was how others were so... unaware. Or if they are aware, in a sense, they choose to be apathetic. We have our own lives to worry about, thanks very much - that sort of thinking.

I don't know... I can't explain it. It's a different world.

They don't live in a world where people come up to your doorstep everyday to ask for money or food; where almost everyone had to conform to what was not necessarily best, but all they could afford; a world where children are stick thin because they're hungry and have mucus dripping from their nostrils; a world where people had to do desperate inhumane things because they were faced with desperate inhumane situations. And not in a world where one was disappointed or sad for someone else because that someone else could not afford to grab the opportunity (unlike the more fortunate ones) when they possessed the same abilities, if not more.

Like I said, this is some serious shit. I guess I'm just being too idealistic due to my so-called "youth," as older people call this banter. Anyway, this might be continued, maybe not. Depends on my availability. Research papers are coming, and I have to study for Botany (ARGH!). Remember my struggling PE? :) I managed to catch the volleyball 21 times without stopping! It was our first exam and our target number was 25. Woooohooo! ^_^ I couldn't even get 6 catches during practice! =p Thank you, God!

NB: ok, so, the title used to say shit, but the font was too big for the word it started to bother me. haha! prude, prude me again.